soooo a lot has happened...i guess the only way to describe it is to quote my journal from that day....but some background first: one night at the library, fonda, joey, and i were joking about quitting school and planting a church and how much more joy we could find in that...then i got into a crazy funk...after a lot of talking through it, we realized that spiritual warfare was at play...i really don't mean to make light of any of this...so anyway, we felt like satan was threatened by just the mention of the idea of doing great things in Christ's name...and this is my journal entry from the next day:

"God, fill me up, wake me up, pump me up. I feel like a zombie and I know exactly why now. Three hours of sleep doesn't help, and neither does not spending time with You. God, help me guard my mind agains Satan. He hates what we are doing. Help us keep doing the things he hates in Your Name. God, fill me with Your presence. If planting a church is Your will for our lives, help us to see that SO clearly. God, nothing is a coincidence. Show me that today. Help me find a little rest in You. I love You. Help me show that to the people You love."

so about four months ago i was reading through the New Testament and i stopped because i started reading through Jeremiah...anyway, i go to read and turn to where my page marker was, still stuck to 1 Timothy 3. the heading is "Qualifications of Church Leaders". it says this: "This saying is trustworthy: 'If anyone aspires to be an overseer, he desires a noble work.'" it then goes on to describe all the attributes of church leaders (which is now my list of things to aspire to be).

God has never answered my prayers so quickly or obviously. it was powerful. it completely rocked my life. then i went back and read the blog post before this one... "are you kidding me, God?!?!?!" what power the Word brings!

in the following week or so i have met and grown closer to some of the most real, enthusiastic, and Christ-like people i have ever known. every day has brought me confirmation of something i had never before thought i was cut out for...God works wonders...