goodbye is too heavy a word for my heart to say.

in the midst of being ridiculously excited about my summer plans as well as being insanely overwhelmed by school, i've been counting down the days until i'll be in charleston.  

last night i realized that three weeks left of clemson also means only three weeks of some people being in clemson.  forever.  melancholy overwhelmed me.  

and then i realized that i'll be doing the exact same thing a year from now.  i've wasted almost three years here.  i haven't done a thing that's mattered.