the Lord very clearly called me to Charleston, everything fell into place. this is where i'm supposed to be.
then two days ago, i get a voicemail from the people i have been nannying for saying that their schedules changed and they no longer need me.
so i'm here, with about 10 people i know, jobless. and i have a rent here and in clemson.
i'm not gonna lie. it feels a little like betrayal. it feels like He's playing with me, and that's not a fun place to be in.
i know beyond a shadow of a doubt that it's not true. i know He has the BEST plans. and they're going to blow my mind. but it's a little frustrating to sit around applying and sending resumes and hearing nothing back.
so i'm needy. Jesus, i need you. at this point, there's absolutely nothing i can do. i've got to wait on You.
i said i wanted an adventure. here it is.
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Jordan, this is exactly how my summer has been. It is so great to see how things have been looking up for you... it's really encouraging, and I can't help but realize how much I've been rejecting God lately and trying to fix it all myself (I have the jobless problem, I have the rent problem, the mislead feeling, etc). And that's all AFTER he's shown me the love of strangers and how the way I've been taught all my life to stay away from people I don't know is FALSE. He's been trying to reach me and I haven't understood because I haven't truly trusted him. Thanks for writing babe - clarity is a great feeling :)
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