walking on water

so for about three months now i've been feeling like the Lord's been telling me to walk on water. every sermon i heard was about it, every song had those lyrics, random people would start talking about it. so every time i'd get near a body of water, be it hartwell, the reflection pond, the ocean, or just a puddle, i've tried to walk on it, with all the faith i can muster. i just ended up walking around dripping for a few weeks. pretty funny actually.  

side story: i became obsessed with the writings of madeleine l'engle. i've got a word document of everything she's ever written and i'm determined to read it all by the end of the summer. 

so i go the charleston library the other day and i'm browsing through her stuff, and there's a book called "walking on water". it's a book of reflections on faith and art and their connection. whoa. it's changing my life. 

i realized that the Lord was calling me to read this book. and i'm so glad.  here's a couple excerpts:

"In art we are once again able to do all the things we have forgotten; we are able to walk on water; we speak to the angels who call us; we move, unfettered, among the stars."

"What is real? In the Bible we are constantly being given glimpses of a reality quite different from that taught in school, even in Sunday school. And these glimpses are not given to the qualified; there's the marvel. It may be that the qualified feel no need of them."

"We have to be braver than we think we can be, because God is constantly calling us to be more than we are, to see through plastic sham to living, breathing reality, and to break down our defenses of self-protection in order to be free to receive and give love."

"When Jesus wanted to go somewhere he didn't summon a taxi to take him to the airport. He went. And if we examine the Gospels carefully, we discover that sometimes he went farther than even the fastest runner could go in that length of time...We were not meant to be any more restricted than Jesus was during his sojourn with us here on this earth. If we take seriously that during the time of his Incarnation he was truly man, truly human as we are, then anything he did in his lifetime is available to us, too. Am I suggesting that we really ought to be able to walk upon water? That there are (and not just in fantasies) easier and faster ways to travel than by jet or car? Yes, I am."

"The painters and writers who see the abuse and misuse of freedom and cry out for justice for the helpless poor, the defenseless old, give me more hope; as long as anybody cares, all is not lost. As long as anybody cares, it may be possible for something to be done about it; there are still choices open to us; all doors are not closed. As long as anybody cares it is an icon of God's caring, and we know that the light is stronger than the dark."

that's as far as i've gotten so far.  a little past halfway.  

(i'm still going to attempt walking on water whenever the opportunity arises)

((sorry for all the angry/ranting posts lately. that's going to be stopping right about now.))