this is not like me. sometimes at school when no one was in the apartment i would go to the library even if i didn't have work, just to be around people. i guess you could call it an insecurity, but i think it's different. i don't need to talk to people or even interact with them (in fact, i'd rather not), i just like to know there's another living being near me.
but back to the alone time. i've had a lot. which is good. i've had a lot of time just to spend with Jesus. and a lot of time to spend reading.
but because of society's view that being alone is considered "lame", i've been beating myself up about it. not okay. i'm not lame. (i'm affirming myself, not trying to tell anyone else) it's okay to do things you love to do, like read, and paint, and meditate, which require you to be alone.
i'm definitely not saying that being alone all the time is good..."love thy neighbor as thyself" doesn't work too well when you don't have "neighbors" to love. but it's okay if no one knows where you are or what you're doing at every moment of the day. it's okay to be alone.
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