Thursday, June 18, 2009

love, joy, peace, and righteousness

confession: i was extremely close to backing out of going to st. louis the week before. when i say extremely close i mean i had typed up an email to send to nikki that i just hadn't sent yet.

i forgot that i never told anyone that. and i even forget why i didn't want to go. i think it was because i was seeing all these legit things happen in other peoples' lives but not in mine and i didn't think i was worthy of being on the prayer team because of it...

well...that's all gone now (with the exception of a few 5-minute breaks in logical thinking here and there) and i'm sitting here thinking what would happen if i hadn't gone.

i'm definitely not saying that our group would have been worse off without me...i'm just thinking about what my life would be like right now. totally NOT where it is. if i could have guessed where i'd be during summer before spring break, it would probably not be here, and my soul would absolutely not be in it's current state.

it's astounding me as i think about the series of events that has put me right here in charleston, right now, writing this blog. i wouldn't have some of the same friends. i wouldn't have love, peace, freedom, and joy written into my soul and carved into my face. my actions wouldn't have produced the same fruit. (no one would be calling me mama...and boy is that catching on)

i'm just totally blown away by the way He puts things in motion. He knows His plans....and they're GREAT.

1 comment:

anna said...

the prayer team totally would have been worse off without you!
and i love this :)